Secrets...

Meh. I haven't written any gibberish here in a while.. and with the husband gone to get his motorcycle license, why not? :)

Secrets, they can make us happy, sad.. well, pretty much anything that a human being can feel.

I've got a secret that I haven't shared with many people. Well, I have a handful of things I don't just tell anyone, like.. I'm sure everyone is like that, right? But this particular secret.. is confusing. It makes me physically feel ill. Reactions had about it will probably be different.. but I doubt I'll ever tell EVERYONE. Who would?

Secrets also hold a lot of power, whether it's your own secret or someone else's. You can manipulate people pretty effectively with a good secret. Not that I'm saying we should do that! Absoultely rude, dreadful, and unloving to hold things above peoples heads to get what you want.
It's like being 5 years old and promising to tell someone a secret "but only if you ____.." .
Or telling someone you'll tell their secret if they don't do something for you.

Mean, Mean, Mean.

Anyways, I'm going to stop writting about nonsense and maybe right about something else later :D

Dun DA!

Wowzaaa

Hey Whoever reads this!

I haven't blogged in ages.. because, well... not much interesting has happened.

THOUGH! I turned 19 this month! Superly awesome cool, I know. I still feel like I'm some where in my 14-16ish ages. I'm not truly diggin' this whole 'getting older thing'. Bleh.

Also, back on the birthday thing. I was so not looking forward to it. I'd convinced myself that it was going to be tragically awful. It would just be added to the list of depressing birthdays. AND it probably would have been.

If not for my wonderful husband :) He made my day so special. I felt special. It was such a good day and it was happy. I didn't feel sad and I actually enjoyed myself. Which, in turn I must admit, made me feel so bad for being the way I was on his birthday. I was an extreme emotional disaster. I don't think I've ever been that bad. Hopefully I can make it up to him come next year.

I got some pretty cool stuff as gifts as well! My parents (who are in Alaska and I'm in Australia.. if you're not sure about distance, check out your globe or maybe google maps? ;) ) sent me a box full of stuff. REESE'S PIECES! OHH MAN! THE LOVEEEE! Australian's aren't really fans of peanut butter/chocolate combinations. Crazy, I know. You can get them here, but they're like 4 bucks for the king size package.

Anyways, my mom also sent me this book I finished reading today by Shaunti Feldhahn called 'For Women Only: What you need to know about the inner lives of men'. Can you say eye opening? It was so fantastically good, I cried, I laughed and I read the entire book quicker than most anything I read.
I honestly feel like I can love by husband better because I understand him better. It's pretty epic. Hopefully I can pass this on to my gal pals here and if anyone else reads this perhaps you'll look into reading it?
Maybe I should give you more details, Well... She made polls and had interviews with heaps of different guys getting their opinions on how they feel loved when they feel respected, how they are visually; etc. Basically things we may have the slightest clue or be completely unaware of :)

Yeah, READ SOME BOOKS YA'LL!

Another add on! This guy Dan is epic. Single dad who has hilarious and heartfelt blog. http://www.danoah.com/p/bit-about-me.html
There is a hysterical post about his son, Noah, getting a pistachio stuck up his nose. I laughed till I just about cried. You'll like it, I promise.

Thanks for reading this ladies and gents.. if you do :) I appreciate ya!

<3Chelsie

Tuesdays...

How frustrating. I deleted my post by accident. LAME.



Basically what is on my mind lately is all this free time I have.

I wish I was doing something useful and productive, like volunteering. I googled a job thing for Brisbane and looked for volunteering and didn't see anything. I look again today, see if I find anything. :) I wouldn't even mind having a job, but they have a very low percentage of unemployment here. Everyone already HAS all the employees they need.

Aw SNAP!

Actually I haven't looked that far into it yet. Apathy is a cruddy place to be. As well as finding you'd become all complacent.

I wish I could figure out where my hyperness went and where my passion for people and photography and other random things I was hugely interested in has disappeared to.

I did take some photos the other day!




I haven't got around to editing (or attempting to edit) any of them yet. I walked to the cemetary the other day. It's the place I go when I get bored and need to get away from the computer. I used to be afraid of them when I was younger. Now I see them as history. Thinking about who they were and how they lived. Their kids, stuff like that. I wonder how many people are thinking about them, how many people they helped. If they were nice or meanies.

Did they make an impact with their lives?
Will I make an impact with my life?
Who will I help? Will people remember me as a nice person or a meanie?

Despite what people may think of you now, someday you will die. Like everyone else. You don't know when. Will you try and help people have better lives by being compassionate? Or will you live for yourself?

Steven (husband) and I heard Daughtry on the radio a few days ago and looked up his songs on Youtube (I think he has a pretty darn good voice, just by the way). It really convicted me. Here's the link. Listen and watch, it's good stuff.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtgVL__Li2E

Oh Man! Aren't you Behind?

HELLO WORLD!

It's been ages, hasn't it?! Okay, updates. Lemme think...

So, Since my last blog entry/whatever it's called. I've met a boy online... he came to visit me and my family, we got engaged, and now I'm married and living in Australia!
WOO! I'm A WIFE! (to a very wonderful man, if I do say so myself.. :] )

God has blessed me very well! It has been a bit hard for me in being away from what is familiar... even though I've had 9 months to adjust. (Yea...)

Well... I can't even think of things to say! Being married is great! I don't have much of a life to report though other than that because I haven't really got super involved in anything outside of the house. My photography hobbies have died a bit. I think because I've allowed myself to feel bummed out, things that are important to me I just don't do/work on/put engery and effort into.
It's pretty lame. I've let myself become that way. I can't blame anyone! I could have been a lot different, been stronger, decided that "NO! I WON'T BE DEFEATED!!" By whatever, depression, lack of confidence; etc. and let God work through me.. but no. I was having a bad attitude.

I need to PRAY! and find God and listen and seek Him out. I want to be better at giving God my time and my life, like I used to be better at. Cast my cares onto Jesus, coz He loves us and He is REALLY, truly good.

*looking for a cool verse.. and and by the way! Look up word4u2day.com.au, seriously the coolest little devotional book. I got one free from church (: *

This entire chapter is good! (As well as the whole book!) I'm gonna share part that I highlighted a little while back..

Psalm 18:28-36 (NKJV)

²⁸ For You will light my lamp;
The LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.
²⁹ For by You I can run against a troop,
By my God I can leap over a wall.
³⁰ As for God, His way is perfect;
The word of the LORD is proven;
He is a shield to all who trust in Him.

³¹ For who is God, except the LORD?
And who is a rock, except our God?
³² It is God who arms me with strength,
And makes my way perfect.
³³ He makes my feet like the feet of deer,
And sets me on my high places.
³⁴ He teaches my hands to make war,
So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

³⁵ You have also given me the shield of Your salvation;
Your right hand has held me up,
Your gentleness has made me great.
³⁶ You enlarged my path under me,
So my feet did not slip.

Also sharing....

Pictures from the wedding!!(For proof reasons... :P )

Photography

Yup.

I like to take random pictures [:

It's one of my very few hobbies that I actually practice...

Maybe I'll post more later

Yeah, I haven't bloggered (? ha) in a while./
and i kind of just feel like typing out a bunch of nonsense because I can.
I feel... slightly rantish.

Dunno why either.

Blah. Lack of inspiration.

But I'm so blessed!! I'm sure I could think of something smart to type out if I felt super compelled. But over achiever, I am not.

Though, I have this awwweeeesssoooommeee friend whom I like to call 'Taterkin' because said friend doesn't like it. (muahaha! Dunno if you'll read this.. but whatever.) Very inspiring and motivating person. As well as a lot of other things.

P:

I'm really thirsty right now and I also don't know why. Dehydration? Could be.

I also feel insanely distant from people. Why? That's what I wanna know. Maybe I'm just tired. Or being overly emotional,.... sounds like a girlish thing to do. Lame.

You know what. I should just take the focus off of myself and put it onto God and others. Yes. Okay, so that is what I'm going to be working on. If I feel 'bored' and am about to do something dumb like be online playing games for 45 hours, (not really that many hours. and usually when I'm online it's for a very amazing reason. If you read the above and felt at all offended by my internet comment, it has NOTHING to do with you. When I'm online talking to people it's never a waste, in my opinion.) I'll try and remind myself to pray some more or read my bible or maybe call up a friend I haven't talked to in a long time.

Basically. This is a rant by me to me.

I need work. I need more focus. I need more Jesus in my day.


I feel way better now after all this typing. Maybe some sleep soon will help even more; after I get good focus, or course.


If you read this. I'm very.. very sorry. You must be bored [;

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Twilight: The Moon's goodnight kiss to The Sunshine.
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Chances are you never gave
Happiness a second thought;
Everyone will stop and say
Lose your way in everything.
Sidetracked by lies and smiles
Is this the real way to live your life?
Everything is worth a question.
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Fading color; Glittering lights
Underneath your Twilight Skies.

After the Moon Kissed the Day Goodnight.

Bid farewell to the days sorrows;
Forget the yesterday tomorrow.

Dr. John Bosman (at g//z - Beginning of End|Strong)

SpiritWind

I feel like blogging about this just in case I lose my notebook.
I should probably do this more often.
Basically, a friend and I had a discussion on part of this on the same day Dr. Bosman would talk on it.

Here are my notes off of John's talk:

God wanted you to be here, he needs you to be here for a purpose.

[[People are like Snowflakes, not One is the Same]]

"You are YOU for a reason. Never ever try to be somebody else."

You make the decision to be a failure or a success, your parents and your peers don't decide for you.

How do I live my life to End Strong? 5 ways that will help you to end your life strong:

1) It starts with a goal. Focusing on the Call of God. Develop a purpose, what is your purpose? Whatever stirs your passion determines your purpose/calling.[Do you feel pulled to a certain place or a particular people? Do you feel sadness or anger towards something?] Mind in the beginning what matters at the end. [How will your choice effect certain goals in your life? Make the right choice now.]


2)Determine where you are and live your life committed to your dream/goal. [Reference to Alice in Wonderland: When Alice speaks to the Cheshire Cat and he tells her she can't know where she's going until she knows where she's at.]


3) Aim your life like an arrow. FOCUS. Learn to focus on your determined destiny. [Like a camera, focus on your goal and the rest fades out]
Find a subject and decide to focus on one thing. If you'll spend an extra hour everyday on the subject you choose, you'll become an expert in that field in five years or less.


4) Choose your relationships carefully. [Mind in the beginning what matters at the end [; ] Our God is a God of new beginnings.


5) Make God the top priority of your life. [Putting your main focus on God is going to help you find what you're looking for. He helps everything fall into place]

Psalm 119: 9-16

9 How can a young man cleanse his way?
By taking heed according to Your word.
10 With my whole heart I have sought You;
Oh, let me not wander from Your commandments!
11 Your word I have hidden in my heart,
That I might not sin against You.
12 Blessed are You, O LORD!
Teach me Your statutes.
13 With my lips I have declared
All the judgments of Your mouth.
14 I have rejoiced in the way of Your testimonies,
As much as in all riches.
15 I will meditate on Your precepts,
And contemplate Your ways.
16 I will delight myself in Your statutes;
I will not forget Your word.